So as most have read im going through a hard time after the lost of my daughter. you know trying to find away to pay for the funeral and everything. but i cant figure out how to cope like this is my first true loss like she was my child and no one will talk to me or nothing like people are making me feel like its my fault. it is killing me. not only that i didnt get to really see her i had to stand 500ft away cuz her mother didnt want me there.

I dont know this is getting to me.


People say well she's in a better place, how is a 36 x 18 space better.
she isn't around for me to chase or to see the brilliant smile on her face.

I feel so cold an alone everyone my daughter was all i had. she gave strength to get up in the mourning now i feel empty and my heart feels shattered. this is a blow that has me tattered like i step out and got splattered.

Now I'm stuck wondering what else matters cuz everything reminds me of her and my heart screams. i cant sleep cuz of haunting dreams. my mind is so messed. used to think god bless, but now i could care less.

I'm full of disdain and aching with pain, 2yrs old and already taken from this plane. This is so much at once to handle that it makes me just wanna wait till something extinguishes my candle.

I am Lost in life now cuz she was like my stars in the night and my only reason to fight.
I'm Lost In life without my daughter in strife.

So now I'm for ever Lost!